Hello there, bloggie! It has been way too long since I last talked to you. I guess you have every right to be mad at me now given that I've made a promise sometime ago that I will be talking to you more often and then I disappeared. Just like that.
Well... I'm in the UK now. Remember the post I wrote about the gift my mom gave me? Remember I made a promise that I will work hard to get here? I kept that promise anyway. I made it. I know I should be happy... I was happy... Maybe I'll be happy again too... but as of now, allow me to be sad/stressed out/depressed or whatever you decide to call.
I have been here for a week now, and to tell you the truth, it's prolly the loneliest week I've ever had. I know almost everyone, if not all, is thinking that I'm having fun on this new land because it's like my dream is realising itself as a reality. I had thought that I'd be like that too before coming here... but now that I'm here, I'm lonely. More than ever.
Since I got here, I only talk to a few people because I can't avoid them. I didn't join any school activities. I didn't go to meet the other Cheveners. I didn't keep in touch with the Cambodian Cheveners. I don't know why, but I really don't feel like talking to any of them. Am I going to be that weird Asian kid at school who talks to no one? Hopefully no. But that will really depend on my mood. So, we'll see...
As of now, I'm so stressed out. I don't even know exactly what I want to say to you, bloggie. I'm sorry for always coming here wanting to share with you but always ending up beating around the bush. Truth be told, I'm so lost. I wish sharing this to an actual human being weren't so tough. But sadly, I can't do it. I miss going to work. I miss talking to my students. I miss preparing lessons. I miss coming home to see mom and dad and everyone else although I still don't like the house I live in. But it's still better than now. Coming home to no one... sucks. I haven't been sleeping well lately. I feel like I'm a lost soul... wandering in between Cambodia and UK. I wish things would get better soon... it's been only a week after all. Many more to come... hmmm... goodbye for now. Take care, bloggie.
