Thursday, May 10, 2012

Help my sister out with her journal :D

Every single person has their own source of inspiration to move on with their lives; that is what I believe. I, too, have my most inspiring person to keep me moving on, and undoubtedly, that person is my mother. My mother has always been the one to provide me the sense of "never give up". A weak woman are the words people may generally use to describe her, but little do they know about her heroic side. My mother is a working woman; she is a doctor, so clearly, she is a busy woman. However, despite her busyness, my mother has always tried her best to take care of my family in any possible way she can. With the tiredness from work, my mother still has never ignored the household chores. Other than that, she has always been caring about her kids. Very often, she comes to my room just to make sure I am both physically and emotionally healthy. There are times I could notice that she may be feeling guilty, for she thinks that she has not provided me enough love and warmth, but the opposite is true. Every action of my mother's has shown me how hard she has tried to support this family. Regardless of how tired she is every day, she has never given up. From what she does, I grow to possess this priceless attitude as well. Whenever I face up to obstacles in life and feel like giving up on things I love, I always remind myself of my mother, of how strong she is when trying to hold on to what she treasures. That is when I bounce back and be inspired to keep going on. Therefore, I would express a heartfelt thank to my mother, for she is the one who constantly inspires me to be as strong as she is.


Aight, I was gonna write what's on my mind... but then my sister came to ask me for help with her journal. I had not a single clue what to write... and this is what I came up with lol~ #sigh wish I were a better writer...

Forget HIM!!!

This is one of the poem-like piece of writing... I was inspired by bro Shinichi Goh to write such thing! This poem was written for myself, but partly for my other half, Mina as well... We were going thru tough time together, so I was hoping writing would help me a bit...~


Forget him, forget what he said, for it'll only stress you to death
Forget him, forget what he did, for it'll bring you no benefit
Forget him, forget what he sang, for it'll only get you shoot yourself bang bang bang
Forget him, forget what he promised, for it'll only get you feeling pissed
Forget him, forget how he looked like, for you don't ever want, again, that love to strike
Forget him, forget how he smiled, for you haven't seen your own for a while
Forget him, forget how he acted, for there's no way you're gonna go back
Forget him, forget how he lied, for in your world, he already died
Forget him, forget how he was gone, for it is now time to move on
Forget him, forget who he was, for it's time you lived like a boss...

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

What makes me end the conversation?

Okay, so not long ago I got into a talk with few classmates after my presentation in FE class... it was not a talk actually, it was just like and QnA session after we presented something! and what happened in that class inspired me to write this post... So, what makes me end a conversation? There are actually a number of reasons why I decided to leave the conversation!!!

1. I dislike the person I'm having conversation with. So you may ask, why would you have a conversation with the person you dislike anyways? Well, there are these people who are thick-faced. They know we dislike them, but for some stupid reasons, they just wanna start the conversation with us for the sake of showing off something... and yeah, when they talk to me trying to show off what they have, I simply reply one or two words because I want to show them directly that I dont wanna talk with them, then I simply leave the convo. Cool right? :D

2. I actually run outta words to say. In this case, it's probably because of lack of intimacy or chemical? (haha) Well, this case is simple right... usually the convo is ended awkwardly! It's either I tell them to go do their stuffs, or I tell them I need to do stuffs lolz~ 

3. The interlocutors piss me off. Nothing much to say, when they piss me off, why would I stay to listen to them? The longer I stay to listen, the more possibility I will become a murderer haha~ 

4. When I feel like the person I'm talking to doesn't feel like having conversation with me. Well, I'm not a thick-faced person when it comes to communicating! Plus, I think I'm really sensitive in this case. I will end the convo immediately when I sense that who I'm talking to dont wanna talk to me... But, that usually happens to people I'm not too close with. So, how do I notice if people wanna talk with me or not? Umm, this is quite easy, i guess... When people don't feel like talking to you, they will simply reply one word when they're supposed to say something more to answer your questions... and it takes quite a long time from one reply to another! yeah, that happens.. so just end the conversation! I won't stress myself by waiting for their replies!

5. When I sense that the person I'm talking to wants to stupidly DEBATE with me, or want to childishly win me over an argument. Yeah, this is what happened to me in FE class... Hey, I love arguing with my close people for fun, but when it comes to debate, I don't usually talk or even try to convince them what I believe. Usually, in debate, most people just want to win you even they're saying non-sense things! In debate, we can't convince them. U know why? Cos they never listen to what you're saying or try to make sense of it! That's the reason why I leave the convo. Tell me why the hell shouldnt I stop talking to those non-sense people.

I guess there are more weird reasons why I stop the conversations I started... but this is all I can think of right now... so maybe more later! :)

P.S: I guess for now, you have 5 reasons to hate me... I'm sorry I just cant be the fake good!

Monday, May 7, 2012

Why is it so hard just to say I'M NOT FINE!!!


"Are you okay?"
"Are you alright?"
"Hey, you're feeling okay, yeah?"...etc
So these are the questions I found so hard to answer but usually, my answer would be "Hey yah, of course, i'm okay"! Of course people ask me these questions when they sense my something-is-wrong feelings... People say we'd feel better to share things with the close people of ours! That's what I've always wanted to try... but so far, little has been done!
Why is it so hard to tell people that we're not fine??? Well, i think that's because we then need to tell them what's going not right! At least in my case, that's my reason! It's not that I don't want to let them know my stuffs! I'm dying to let my close people know what's going on in my life... but when it comes to sharing, I hate myself for always being tongue tied, and for always not knowing how to start! I'M DUMB!!!
So here is what I usually do... I tell them I'm fine, and I act like everything really is fine :D It's easier to do things that way :|